baby attachment

I met my client cum friend last week. He asked how old is my son, beaming proudly I answered,

“7 months.”

He said, “perfect timing for vacation”

I’m like…“What do you mean? He can’t even walk yet. Won’t it be hard?”

He clarifies…“No. I meant for both of you. Only the two of you. Leaves the baby with your mom or whoever. It is perfect timing coz the baby is not too attached to you yet.”

And I’m like…“Emm….but I never leave him at night. Never.”

He said… “yeah..yeah…that’s all mother in the world said. I’m planning for holiday with my wife for one and a half year already. Never jadi coz of the kids. Just go somewhere near, but just the two of you.”

(btw my friend here has three kids now, all age 6 years and below)

Our conversation changed topic after that. But what he said keeps on lingering in my mind. Should we plan for holiday? Will my baby be okay with that? He sleeps with me every night. Since the day he was born. Well, actually I think he did spend one night at the hospital nursery coz of the jaundice, but the day after that he sleeps with me every single night. Plus he drinks milk once in 2 hours throughout the night. Dengan mata terpejam merengek rengek la carik susu. More for comfort rather than thirsty I suppose.

Well, the truth is…maybe he can survive a night without me but I am not sure whether I can. I am so attached to him as much as he is attached to me. Maybe even more. I thought about him everyday. Things like, how is he doing in nursery? Will he cry today? How much he will eat? How much he will drink?

So won’t these things bother me if I go away for holiday? Boley ke tenang jiwaku… hmmm….

Anyway, my son is 7.5 months now. He started to crawl now, yeayy!!! Baru 2-3 langkah. He knows when we call his name, knows how to rotate his wrist (never realize this is a motor development skill until now), and knows how to clap his hand, yeayy!!! Tapi kalau suruh tepuk tangan takde la dia tepuk, dia just tepuk bebila dia nak je hehe…

Since he started to crawl, he does not last long in his baby cot or baby rocker. Baru duduk 10 saat dah merengek nak keluar. Thus yesterday we bought him the VeeBee Play Yards. I got the idea to buy this when Sheri mentioned it in her blog. So yesterday we went to The Curve and the thing is on sale so we bought it yeayy!!! Ashman amat suka hooray so now I can take my shower without worrying he might fall from his baby cot any longer.

We also bought his new car seat coz now kengkonon dah besar dah tak suka duduk dlm the baby-car seat. Meraung mcm kena dera bila duduk dlm tu. This new one yg boley duduk tengok depan punya ala ala big boy okay thank u very much🙂. Anyway, the baby-car seat and baby rocker tu dah banyak berjasa – even though tempoh 7 bulan tu mcm sekejap tapi kalau dalam hal melibatkan baby nie terasa lama betul especially time dia nangis hehe…

Another thing now that he is more active and sweat a lot, we started to discover he has rashes under his neck. At first I thought it is a normal rash, but after we went to the pediatrician he confirm that our boy has mild eczema. At first I’m a bit surprised. I am not supposed to be surprise actually since my family has long history of asthma thus eczema is related. But since I don’t have both asthma and eczema I thought our baby won’t have it (hubby’s family lagikla takde even the term eczema sounds foreign to him). Looks like it skips 1 generation.

Anyway, I am a bit worried coz although almost all my siblings, nephews and nieces has eczema, me myself never experience it thus am not sure what the treatment should be. I want to give the best to my baby, so I am worried my ignorant on eczema might jeopardize his health. For example, what if I rub a wrong lotion which makes him itchier? Oh my… Hence I’m learning on the eczema thingy now. Hopefully I will not make such silly mistake.

By the way cakap pasal pediatrician, we found this loving and nice pediatrician – Klinik Kanak Kanak Ong located at Ampang Point sebaris dengan Shakeys Pizza. He checked my baby thoroughly and answered all our questions. Recommended for those who stay in that area. Susah sket nak carik paed nie sbb macam yg kat hospital tu time office hour jer ada kan.

Okay la saya kena stop membebel. Exam lagik 6 hari banyak giler lagik kena cover. This time around rasa mcm tak berapa prepared je..takut!!!



Well, things have work nicely for me:-

1. My assignment’s due date was postpone for 2 days, give me enough time to reconstruct my sentences making it at least edible to digest by Prof hence submitted a few hours before due date.

2. Alhamdulilah, my baby boy no longer has fever. Still has a bit of phlegm, but now that he starts being bouncy (amat suka lompat ok!) and cheeky again, I’m no longer worried.

As the two subjects above are in good condition, last Saturday I really, truly enjoying myself at Bkt Jalil Stadium watching my favorite team. The whole stadium was RED. Seriously, it was like a dream. There’s a moment I thought I’m at Old Trafford itself (*poyo*) but I really can’t believe myself ~ the atmosphere was so great I can’t believe I almost don’t buy the ticket. The stadium was full, sampai tempat duduk paling atas tu pun ada orang laa kiranya. Best! Being surrounded with all the die hard fans, so fun!

Actually that was the first time me and hubby were out, only the 2 of us. So at first I felt guilty leaving little one at home. But I justify myself that this might be a chance of a lifetime plus he is in good care (angah’s). Everytime the player came out I scream at the top of my lung! Owen and Rooney seems to attract most fans. Tak expect jugak ferguson bawak semua first team datang, (with exception of Park & Vidic). Pity I love Vidic, he’s so good yet down-to-earth. Still, the rest were there. Tengok diorang warming up pun rasa happy giler! haha best best!!!

I was especially delighted to see Giggs. Menjerit tak ingat punya la. Amat minat dia okay. He was already in the team when I started supported them (year 1994-95, together with Neville and Scholes) so they were so synonym with United. Respected them, walaupun dah kira veteran still hardworking kejar bola. Legendary yet humble.

Even though I did not eat/drink anything plus the weather was so hot and we have to walk almost half around the stadium coz our gate was at the other side, I did not feel thirsty at all. Hahaha..giler betul. Power of the RED DEVIL:)

In total, the game was great. I was so jubilant – tidur malam tu pun rasa extra nyenyak saja:). Tup tup bangun esok pagi bukak tv – they said there’s going to be a rematch on Monday!!! (yesterday). Oh my oh my…my adrenaline went fast again.

Thinking thinking…I missed the last time they were here (year 2001). Masa tu bengang giler kenapa laa waktu diriku berada di US laa baru nak datang Msia. So this feels like my chance to watch them twice (kira Man United main semata mata nak ganti yg I miss tahun 2001 tu- *poyo lagik*).

Should I go?
Tapi baru je tengok. Isn’t that enough?
How can you have enough? You’ll never get enough of MAN UNITED

So it’s decided. I’m going again!!! YEAY!!!!

The outcome? Memang amat puas hati sebab kali nie tak berapa ramai orang (tak berapa ramai pun dalam 30 ribu gak) so dpt tgk lebih clear. Best sangat!!!

Can’t believe I’d watched 2 live games in 3 days. So lucky. So satisfied.


*Thank you hubby/along/seypol for accompanying me to the games. (especially to hubby yg merupakan KOP by nature). Pengorbanan anda amat saya hargai;)

*The team today spending their day relaxing and golfing, before departing to Korea tomorrow. Kalau laa anakku tu dah besar, mau agaknya ku bawak pergi lepak kat lobi Mandarin Oriental tu hehe…

juggling family, work and study

I’m so tense!

I have so many things to do and so little time and energy left…

My son was down with fever+cough+running nose (complete!) so I have to take emergency leaves to take care of him.

I shouldn’t take leave actually, not when our project has been finalised and going to be presented to Board this wednesday. But sending the little one to nursery is certainly a no-no. Hubby can’t take leave (he has a lot of work, handover, meeting, badminton tournament bla bla). It has to be me.

I pleaded with my boss. I have to play the family card here, my immediate boss is a mother herself. She’ll understand. And my ultimate boss is a family man with 8 children, he has to understand. Even though they don’t understand, I just have to jeorpadize my career here. My boy is my first priority now.

I just can’t leave my son at the nursery. He is so clinging, he cries if you put him down (crying make his running nose even worse), and not eating. Sometimes the phlegm iritates him and makes him throw up. He started to lose some weight already. Pity him.

On the other hand, my homework is due tomorrow. Baru satu page siap okay! Amat tensen! I usually do it at night, but after taking care of little one the whole day, I don’t have much energy left to stay up at night. A mug of MILO can make me last only an hour. As at this moment, I am actually clueless how to finish it. The writing part is easy, yet the thinking–being creative–manipulating words are the hard part which requires my brain to work). I’m so panic I feel like I’m going to fail this paper this time. So frustrated.

Sometimes when my boy cried, I felt like crying together with him. Please be well soon dear. You are the most important to me.

Cayang die. muahss.

a fullfilling weekend

Quite tight up with work lately.

We have submitted the proposal to authority, as usual ~ quite chaos. Chaos in our dictionary meaning hanging out at KLCC for lunch until 2.30pm and got a call from our boss to submit the proposal that afternoon! Haha…apa lagik kelam kabut laa balik ofis. However as we have been trained to work well under pressure (I guess that’s one of the reason they are paying my salary haha ), the things went smoothly.

Of course it cannot be done without the help of our support staff. They helped us with photocopying and binding. In normal working hours I can do those tasks myself. In fact my first Mentor always reminded me to do those tasks myself. ~ use the support staff only when you are very busy. By the way, I still can’t master those skills if working under pressure. Nanti mula lah senget la, paper stuck la whatsoever. Thus with everyone’s help, we manage to send the thingy to the authority before the cut-off time 5.00pm. Hooray!

Yet, how busy I am at work, I still wanted to spend a fulfilling weekend. Especially for the sake of my baby.

The last weekend of June, we all pesta makan ketam as makyam’s family came to KL bringing 2 sacks of crab – still alive okay! It was the first time I’ve seen so many crabs🙂. We all very ‘jakun’, amat terkial kial nak siang sampaikan my dear friend Rina kena sepit ketam. LOL. Well, please take note saya bukan di kalangan mereka yg siang ketam tu…saya tengok dari jauh saja, kengkonon dukung baby la hehehe…All in all, it was a super-delicious dinner. Thank you everyone!

Makyam’s family came to our house to send her sister’s off to a university in KL. It was the first time they came. Makyam herself has never been to our house. In fact the first friend that has ever stepped into our home sweet home were faiq & jee. We just moved in 3 days when they came. The irony part was that they came as we were going to visit Makyam together. We pooled car so they parked their car at our house.

During this visit I told Makyam about how hubby was busy with our new garden (i.e. tanam rumput carpet) and she said she was excited to come and visit our house when she’s cured one day. hmmm…That will never come true now.

That was the second time we visited her. The first time we visited her was when she first diagnosed. At that time (1st visit) she was still full with energy. She just finished operation (to change his urinary and alimentary system as the cancer developed at her colon).

Until now I am full with regret that the gap between the first and second visit was so long! I should have visited her more. I should have… The thought has always haunted me. Of how come I was able to go to weddings (many of them!) and traveling, yet not to visit my sick friend.

In fact while I was busy preparing the necessary for mariam’s family ~ towels, bed sheets, pillow, etc, saya berfikir seorang diri macamana nak borak2 dengan parents dia. I’m not a talker, especially to elderly. Honestly, very different with hubby, saya memang tidak pandai mengambil hati orang tua. I will usually just nod and smile to whatever they said. Orang tua’s phrase “boleh buat menantu” certainly does not fit me.

Anyway, while I’m preparing the bed sheets for them – I was thinking that I will try my best to talk and treat them nicely. I will give my best as that will make makyam’s happy. And then I’m like what the hell was I’m thinking? To make her happy, I supposed to visit her. The reality bites me. To treat her family nicely is only a second best option. I’ve forgone my chance to give her the best…I have to live with that…FOREVER.