Allah Maha Mengetahui

Tiba tiba terasa rindu pada Ashman. This is not the first time, kekadang time buat kerja kat ofis tetiba rasa rindu sesangat! Rasa tak puas peluk cium dia. Even though kekadang dia merengek nak didukung (especially weekend suka merengek maybe sebab tahu parents dia ada), I don’t mind. Akan ku dukung selagi larat. Perhaps sebab last Sunday aku ada seminar the whole day, so kurang satu hari nak main dengan dia! Tu yang rindu sangat tu…

It is amazing how much I love him. His arrival is such a perfect timing to our family. Hubby and I were talking the other day how if only he had arrived earlier we might not be as ready as now, both financially and emotionally.

For instance, how hubby has helped so much in house chores during my pregnancy – siapa sangka ku mabuk teruk sampai hampir tak mampu nak buat apa apa. How hubby also has helped a lot during my confinement, again siapa sangka kena c-sect pulak… How we both went through the long hours at night during the confinement period! Kiranya masa awal2 kawin dulu mungkin tak se-ready sekarang kerana ala2 masih tak berapa matang i.e. tergedik gedik nak enjoy je kweng kweng…

For me to go through the sleepless night, feeding the baby every hour… Sekarang nie terasa seperti sudah expert hua hua… poyo sungguh! Thanks to all the support – my family & friends. My sister who religiously breastfeed her children until almost 2 years old is my main motivator. Thanks to Suria whom suggest the MLO website – which is very useful! I’ve bought their bag pack and ice pack – my companion to work everyday nowadays. The readings provided in the MLO site have also helped me tremendously.

Emotionally we think we are much more ready now. Coz even though the baby physically consume a very small space, he requires full attention and love. He is our first priority now, never second. And I hope will never be…

Although how busy I am, I will remind myself that family is always first. That money can never buy happiness. How tempted I am with money, I will remember those precious moments during the olden days when hubby and I managed to perform jemaah prayer every night. Where he recites zikir while patting my forehead. I think that is valued much more than any kind of handbags or shoes money can buy. Boley compare dengan handbags tu hahaha…sabor jer la.

Hubby and I also talked about how hard it will be for us if we were staying at Bukit Jalil still. Even though the old apartment was very nice, now that we have a child it is very convenient to have your relatives staying nearby. Masa memula dulu nak beli rumah memang agak ragu ragu sebab lokasinya terlalu dekat dengan my mom’s. Takut ala ala takde privacy whatsoever. But rite now we have Ashman, it is very convenient to have my mom and sister within walking distance. Such a superb idea. Bayangkan kalau haritu time Ashman demam kitorang duduk kat B. Jalil macamana la. Nak carik paedtrician clinic lagik…

Kesimpulannya Allah itu Maha Mengetahui and Maha Berkuasa. ~ He knows when we will be ready; what is the best for Ashman. I promise I will give the best I can to the boy. Anak itu amanah dari Allah, and I will do everything I could to take care of him. InsyaAllah…

**On the other note, below is an article appeared in TheStar last week about Dr. Amin (the paed surgeon whom circumsized Ashman) I feel I should share with everyone:

Tuesday April 7, 2009
Dr Amin, a professional and a true friend in need
The death of Dr Amin Tai Abdullah and Dr Haliza Mohd Shafie came as a shock to us, a group of friends who knew them well and had been climbing with them for years.

We were planning a trip to the Lost World of Maliau Basin in Sabah this May. Amin as usual was making his preparations for the climb. He had reminded the team that the trek wouldn’t be easy; with a height of 1,500m to trek.

In the past when we were heading to places like Kilimanjaro, Annapurna and Everest base camps in Nepal, we would go for local preparatory treks in Gunung Datuk, Gunung Nong and Gunung Ledang.

Klangate in Melawati is also a favourate place to train because the place is near and one could complete the trek up and down within two hours. We often joked that we could go up Klangate to see the sunrise at 7am and be in Kuala Lumpur for nasi lemak at 9am. Some parts of Klangate hill has poor telephone reception so sometimes when we are not on call in the hospital, the phones would be left in the car.

One doesn’t need any climbing gear up Klangate hills. Some areas are steep but have ropes in place to help climbers. The most important part of the trek is to go with experienced trekkers and be physically fit.

Amin had been in our trekking team for many years. He was always the organised, careful type with attention to details. He was often the leader and always the pillar of the team; reminding every member of their training, clothing, climbing gears and vaccination etc. The finest quality of all is his caring attitude; always putting others before himself.
When we were up in Kilimanjaro in Tanzania many years ago, a Danish lady doctor in our team was down with severe mountain sickness and had incessant vomiting. While many of us were tired, cold and wrapped up in our tents, Amin walked over to her tent and handed her a cup of warm tea and some medicine and kept her company and encouraged her. Dr Wit recovered, persisted and made the whole journey to Uhuru peak!

That was Amin. A member of Mercy Malaysia, he was the one who would put his private practice aside at short notice and volunteer for any humanitarian aid missions locally and overseas.

He had served in Cambodia, Indonesia and Kosovo even at times when his safety was in peril. To be able to achieve all these, he had a great wife and family who would support him all the way.

Not many people realised that Amin was one of the great surgeon in our surgical circle. When we encountered difficult cases, his help is sought after and he would, at any time of the day, offer his expertise, even for free. His expertise was well recognised and he was a member of the liver transplant based in Singapore. Recently many of our universities were plaqued with resignations of surgical specialists. The Department of Surgery in UPM was badly affected too. Amin volunteered his service as an honourary lecturer and had been actively teaching the medical students for the past two years.

Dr Haliza and her husband Ridzwan trekked with us in Sikkim three or four years ago. Despite her lack of trekking experience, she was never one to give up easily. While I don’t know her that well, her caring attitude and bubbly magnetism impressed me. I have no doubt children and mothers would trust her and love her. The net is full of testimonies for her

Kuala Lumpur.


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